...I did not struggle with weight growing up, but after getting married and having five kids, I had moved solidly into the "overweight" population. In 2006 I was able to lose the extra pounds (50 of them) and get to goal. But staying there, that is another story. Slow but steady, the weight has crept back on over the years. Up and down, and up again ... it's a journey.
Friday, December 31, 2021
2021 - #JenBsBooks
Thursday, December 30, 2021
TV Recap ~ 2021
Wednesday, December 29, 2021
#JenBsMovies 2021
Wednesday, November 24, 2021
Self-Sabtoging September 2021
I've really lost all motivation, which is obviously noted in the numbers. The lack of calorie counting, the uptick on the scale. The days I counted I kept calories in check ... those ZERO days are NOT zero calories. Probably 3000. Just not tracked. Not counted ... but obviously they still add up. A lot. I didn't even get to this monthly recap until oodles after (it's end of November now ... things have not improved). I didn't gather all the graphs and charts because ... why? But I still figured I'd add the monthly numbers up for my own records. Mark the decline. Odd, as September is often one of my more motivational months in years past. Getting back on a school schedule is good! And I have less on my plate this year (#4 is still online-schooling, but I'm not nearly as involved as the last two years, #5 has an early drop-off and late pickup, with less trips in-between). Just a bit of a "nothing really matters" attitude ...
One area I have NOT been struggling in is books ... almost all audio, as I do other tasks.
A good majority here are from Audible's PLUS program. My Audible membership is up in January and I don't plan on renewing. I've only used 2 of my 12 credits so far (I'm perfectly fine borrowing rather than buying, there are few books I want to own and re-listen to). I do like the sales and PLUS program, but have a hard time justifying the cost when I have so many other books at my fingertips (library, etc).
Down in the home gym ... this is what I was watching while working out.
Had a HULU special, so got it for a month. #4 has been happy to have it, watching the anime offerings (he's actually been running on the treadmill, not just walking like me). I have to go with the "no commercials" option as I've been so spoiled by other streaming services. I can't stand ads breaking up the shows. While I like Hulu, again, it is difficult to justify the $13.99 monthly cost ongoing. We'll likely resubscribe here and there. It really is interesting how much motivation a show can bring. Handmaid's would get me excited to hit the gym again. Nine Perfect Strangers was an ordeal to get through (I know, I can just stop watching, but I have this need for closure. Ironically I read the book and didn't care for it either, not sure why I felt like the show might be better). Murders was cute enough, lots of big names, but really just okay. I liked Hot Zone.
The three movies were DVDs from the library - Concussion I had seen before, but #4 was doing a paper for English about concussions in the NFL, so it seemed like a rewatch was recommended. The other two (also "based on a true story") were previews from the former DVD that looked interesting, so I then grabbed them.
... and finally, the monthly photo recap featuring the family!
Recap HERE.
Wednesday, September 29, 2021
August 2021
Weight, had a little drop but then back up. Fasting hours haven't been great, and I've struggled to keep up the motivation to keep a record of caloric intake (you can see I missed a day there, and there were some general estimates where I wasn't really tracking well).
Steps and Sleep ... sleep seems okay.
What I Watched While Working Out ...
Back to HBO (Hubs figured out how to get it included on our phone plan), watching a couple series there. Mare of Easttown was pretty good, I wasn't exactly sure where it would end up. Limited series, wrapped up, not really set for a follow-up. Hubs and I had tried Watchmen a while back, but had only gotten a couple episodes in. I actually had to try and figure out what I had seen and where I was, but needed the refresher. STRANGE series, and I guess it ended at the one season. It did catch my interest and kept me coming back though. A couple movies, one old (Confessions - cute, I'd seen it before. Lots of good music in it) and new, Reminiscence ... this was weird. I liked it okay. Very film noir (I'd piggy backed some of my son's classes last year, one being film studies, thus the reference there). Seemed to have a couple references (both the leading lady, and the rooftop laundry line) to The Greatest Showman. Now CougarTown ... that one has been going on for a while for me. It's my "weight workout" show, one that I don't really have to watch closely, one that I'm okay only catching a couple times a month. I really enjoy this crazy, wacky show. So silly. In the last year or so I think I've finished up season 5 and season 6 ... which wrapped up the series.- The Martian - I've heard the Ray Porter narration is better than this Wil Wheaton narration, but other than some "Ready Player One" flashbacks (he narrated that as well) I thought it was good. I had seen the movie some years ago, which I'd really liked, so I did have a basic idea of the storyline going in. Lots of science/physics/chemistry stuff mentioned (but as I went through chemistry and physics with my son during online learning, it was interesting to me to catch some of it). This was included temporarily in AudiblePlus, so I wanted to get the listen in while it was free for me. 4.5 stars.
- The Midwife's Revolt, Our Own Country and A More Perfect Union - Historical fiction in early-America years featuring Abigail Adams. A trilogy of sorts, books 1 and 2 have many of the same things happening at the same time, but two different character perspectives. The final book is several years after book 2 ends. The first was my favorite I think. These were included in KindleUnlimited (both text and audio). Four stars for the first two, three stars for the third book.
- The Bright Side of Going Dark - cute contemporary, duel POV, featuring a "social influencer" as one story line (turning off her phone, as the title suggests). Kindle Unlimited (text and audio). 4 stars.
- The Invisible Life of Addie Larue - heard SO much buzz about this, and I did like it. The title character and the basic premise of "living years unchanged" resembles "Age of Adeline" (although the similarities end there). Borrowed from my library. Julia Whelan narrating. 4 stars.
- Hope (by Marc Levy) - I've read a few by this author (several included in KU, text and audio) and this was a favorite. A romance wUnbith a little futuristic sci-fi thrown in. Can you preserve a person's soul? 4 stars.
- Confessions of a Jane Austin Addict - this one didn't do it for me. Time travel, modern JA fan transported back into P&P times. Library borrow. Two stars.
- Pride and Premeditation - another "Austen-esque" story that didn't quite do it for me. P&P retelling, murder mystery. I'm not sure why Elizabeth was so young in this (just 15). Library borrow. 2.5 stars.
- All That's Left of Me - For some reason I thought this was going to be a fun/light "wishes come true" story, but it was pretty heavy (trigger warning, sexual harassment/rape). Does make you think about what would happen if what you wished for came to pass. KindleUnlimited, text and audio. 3 stars.
- The Rose Code - WW2 drama ... there's been lots of buzz about this book too, maybe my expectations were too high? It was good, but felt a little over-the-top with all that happened (the spy story). Two timelines, both in the 1940s (during the war and after). Three POVs, although all third person, one narrator. 3.5 stars.
- The Girls in the Attic - WW2 drama, included with Kindle Unlimited (text and audio). Good narration with "German accent" (as the characters are German). I wasn't sure where the story was going, it kept me guessing. 4 stars.
- The Second Blind Son - 2nd in a series, and it had been a while since I'd read book one (The First Girl Child) and I didn't really remember it. But reviews said this was more of a companion book than a sequel. Overlapping timelines, different perspective ... so I figured it would be okay if I didn't feel fresh on the first book. While I've loved many of this author's other works, this series is just so-so for me. Fantasy. Included in KU with text and audio. 3 stars.
- The Coldest Girl In Coldtown - for some reason the "cold" in the title always made me think of "Warm Bodies" and thus zombies ... but this is vampires. Interesting premise (turning "cold" but not yet a vampire) but the "cold" is more related to the MC broadcasting blogger news. Liked it but didn't love it, not sure I'll continue on with the series. Library borrow. 3 stars.
- The Wrong Unit - my one "read" for the month. It was fine, but didn't keep me hooked and I struggled a bit to get through it and was relieved when I was done. Futuristic sci-fi/robots and some crazy technology and world happenings. 2.5 stars. Kindle Unlimited, text only (whispersync audio was available for $7.49 but this was short, or so I thought!)
- Leaving Blythe River - I've read several by this author, and they are a little hit and miss for me. This was a miss. Shifting time frames, and it just wasn't believable at all (for a book that's supposed to be on the realistic side). Searching for a father lost in the wilderness. Included in KU, text and audio. 2 stars.
- Sooley - John Grisham in a non-courtroom novel. This didn't FEEL like a novel at the start. The way it was written, and narrated, it sounded so similar to "The Boys in the Boat" and "Unbroken" ... I had to stop and Google to see if this (the character, the story) was real. While loosely based on a real person, this was fiction (with some situational facts, the war, etc) and ... depressing! It left me down, but 3 stars for the writing. Borrowed from my library.
Friday, August 6, 2021
July 2021
I kept up my 10k streak, ten 20k days, one 30k day. 15 Zumba classes with a bit of practice at home. Only eight days where I got in my full hour of elliptical. Treadmill time was down, just six days this month. Still plenty of ping pong, and a few (four) pickleball sessions. One weight workout.
What I'm watching really DOES motivate me ... the bottom row was watched in the gym, but with the Seattle trip, the five movies on the top row were during travel. On the plane, and in the car while on the road (I have anxiety issues on freeways and crowded streets, so I sat in the backseat with headphones on and tried to watch a movie, not the road!)
- The Tomorrow War: Amazon original, I liked it. Time travel and futuristic stuff is fun.
- Greenland: Apocalyptic ... I liked this one too. Lots of action, kept my interest and energy up.
- The Impossible: I'd had this on my "to watch" list for a while. Based on a true story. Super sad, intense. Kept me captivated. Cute Tom Holland when he was little!
- Empire of the Sun: A rewatch for me, but it's been years. I've been reading so much WW2 I figured I'd come back to this. Again an actor in his younger years ... Christian Slater.
- The Way Back: We are a basketball family, I like basketball shows. This had a lot of language. Interesting (but appropriate) ending.
- The Upside: I thought this was well done. Thumbs up.
- Remember Me: I am NOT a fan of Mr. Twilight, but I liked this movie well enough. I was not at all sure how it was going to wrap up there at the end. It wasn't what I was expecting.
- Space Jam - A New Legacy: The kids went to the theater opening night. Hubs and I watched some on HBO Max. We didn't make it through. I finished it up on the treadmill, just to finish.
- Luca: Disney+ membership is ending. I'd heard good things about this, it was cute. Very young.
- Big Shot (Season 1): 10 episodes. I waited until all the episodes for the season were streaming. Girls basketball is really different than boys basketball ;) This was a cute little story though, a bit "Disney" and "after school special" feel. I found it interesting that there was a team beyond these five featured girls, but I felt like they were different background girls in every shot ;)
What I was Reading ...(I almost always have an earbud in)
July Books ~
- Pansy Cottage (3/5) 4th in a JAFF series.
- World War Z (4/5) Really liked it - so many accents in the audio edition. Zombies!
- Answer Creek (3/5) Almost a DNF, but glad I went to the end. Historical, Donner Party.
- Pearl of Magic (3/5) 3rd in a 5 book series, loved the first two, this one not as much. Little Mermaid retelling.
- The Will and the Wilds (3/5) Just okay - kept my interest, but won't stick in my memory.
- The Trials of Morrigan Crow (3/5) Meant for a younger audience ... didn't click for me.
- True Loaf (3/5) ... really just a short (really short) story. Just okay.
- Across the Winding River (4/5) WW2 with two timelines. I liked it. Audio included with KU.
- The Seven Day Switch (4/5) Liked this a lot - "Freaky Friday" switch between two moms.
- Tears of Amber (5/5) WW2 historical, over years, intertwining stories.
- Nothing to See Here (4/5) Liked it, unique idea ;)
- The Brilliant Life of Eudora Honeysett (5/5) Fond memories of this one.
- Walk on Earth a Stranger (4/5) Gold Rush historical, touch of paranormal. First in a series.
- Like a River Glorious (4/5) Same series, book 2 ...
- Into the Bright Unknown (3/5) Same series, book 3 (final/trilogy). Enjoyed it, but not quite up there with this author's "Girl of Fire and Thorns" series.
- Darcy's Royal Dilemma (3/5) JAFF, quite short ... abrupt ending (setting up series, but I don't think I'll continue).
- Hamnet (5/5) Lots of book buzz about this - I felt like it lived up to it.
- How the Penguins Saved Veronica (5/5) - I'll have fond memories of this.
Monday, July 12, 2021
June 2021
I had been doing so well. Past tense. What started going downhill mid-May (resulting in an opposite "uphill" on the scale) continued into June. I'm really surprised at how fast the pounds reappeared. 10 pounds in a month? Still staying pretty active, but struggled with food/fasting.
So here's the scale shifts during June. Started at 161.7. Ended at 165.2. High was 167.9. Low was 159.8. Average was 163.5, which is 6.5 pounds up from last month's average. Looking at annual records, at least I'm a lot better off than I was last year at this time. Although if you go back further, it's about where I was May/June of 2019. Up and down, down and up.
Intake vs Burn ... calories counted on My Fitness Pal (requiring manual guesswork and input) and burn calculated by my Fitbit Versa. Who knows how close they are to correct. All estimations. Average intake was high though, 2486. Average daily burn 2858. Can't out cardio the calories, as much as I try!
Step average just over 20k. I kept up my 10k streak (since early January), twenty-one days over 20k, no 30k days this month. 15 Zumba classes, which was more than last month (as I'm hitting MZL regularly now, they even opened up class again! Yeah!) Christa had her last day with our Mon/Wed class though, as she's having ankle surgery and will be out for a few months :( 25 days with some time on the elliptical, 8 days where I got my full hour in. 17 days with treadmill time. 1 time on the bike, 4 weight sessions. 16 days with ping pong, and 7 pickleball sessions.
The TV Shows/Movies I watch really do make a difference in my motivation. The top three are series, the first on Starz, the latter two on Apple+. I finished the first season of GF Experience, but it wasn't really for me, and reviews said the next seasons weren't good. The Mosquito Coast had decent reviews, but I had to push to finish. Got annoyed that WHY they were running was this big secret, never revealed. I liked Physical ... plan on finishing the season, but it's still airing, and my Apple+ subscription ran out and I didn't want to pay to continue it.
Friday, June 4, 2021
May 2021
Monday, May 3, 2021
April 2021
Weight average for April was 156.3, which was down 5.2 from last month. The month started at 156.2, the high was 159.7, the low was 153.72 and it ended at 155.73. Happy to be in the 150s for the full month. The goal is to be under 150, so I'll keep working toward that. The weekends are a challenge, and that is really reflected in the weight graph for the month! Up and down, peaks and valleys!
From the StrideKick app, I get a good graph & stats from Steps & Minutes. There is generally a pretty strong correlation between steps and minutes, but it doesn't always line up perfectly (on one day I beat #4 in steps, but he beat me in minutes). My step average was up a tiny bit from last month, although the total steps were down (March had an extra day over April). My minutes were down a bit in both average and total.









































