Saturday, June 15, 2013
I'm really happy I've been having so many good days. I think I've only gone over my goal ONE day since I started (and that was over my expenditure, not just over my decifit) . I'm not sure what it is. In the past, I would only need to think the word "diet" and be starving ... and I'd alomst always give in to that. I always felt I had no willpower. My initial weight loss several years ago was almost a fluke ... seriously. 20 pounds fell off initially, then I did start eating "better" (still not good, but better *Ü*) and exercising to lose the additional 30. But it was not hard. Not like keeping it off, not like trying to lose after I'd gained again. While exercise has become a part of my life, I've never got a handle on my eating.
I'm still not eating healthy ... I'm simply trying to control my calories at this point (maybe once I feel I really have it under control I can start looking at macros and moving to healthier options). I still struggle. Most days, even when I'm really trying, I can't keep calories under 2000 (they add up so fast when there are a lot of empty calories in there). I'm really trying to pay attention, no mindless or emotional eating. I have days where my hunger is no longer out of control even on a low calorie count day.
Add to that my exercise. I'm a bit crazy with my exercise ... although admittedly, I'm a little more into quantity than quality. I would feel guilty if I just sat down and watched tv ... but if I'm walking, or on the elliptical, I can justify it. I'm exercising! I love to read as well, but again, feel guilty spending too much time on novels ... but if I read while on the stationary bike, then I'm accomplishing two things at once! I don't do a lot of just sitting ... I don't know if I could do a desk job. I think I'd go crazy.
... well, enought sitting down writing this up. Time to get back on the elliptical!